It was a day like this. Crystal clear blue skies with no wind. The sun was out and the birds were singing. I specifically remember the birds. You took me to School in the morning. You had Reece’s for breakfast and we listened to Bob Marley. You told me you’d come back to pick me up but you never made it.
I didn’t get to tell you I love you, I was late for class and kinda just jumped out of the car. Shit I wish I knew. I wish I knew that was the last time I’d see you. I never really talk about that day. I don’t like thinking about it…The emergency room… the blood, the stone cold hands. My Moms tears. The shaking. The pain in my heart. The living hell.
It’s been 9 years and I’m not really mad about it anymore. It still stings but I’m not mad. I think I’m finally learning about love. Love rips your heart open, hard. It hurts and it’s heavy but it’s important to feel it. To experience it. Because that’s what this life is about. It’s about love. Nothing else. Everything else is complete shit. The fancy cars and big houses. Reputation. The fame and names and wealth. It all does not matter. It’s really easy to get caught up in all that but
it’s this blue in the sky that wakes me up , that reminds me of my purpose. That reminds me that the love is still there. I miss you dad. Our time was short but I know that this is how its supposed to be.